Although at some point I am able to give this treat to myself. But oftentimes, things keep flashing through my mind and part of me is still stocked in that time. I thought getting that wish will be happiest for me, I though that will satisfy me, my mind, my dreams and will make me ready for everything. Not until everyday as I get mature, It made me realize day by day, that happiness means not getting what you want. It means being able to handle disappointments and strong enough to accept things you can't change. :)) that is real happiness.